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bleachedveins @ 2006-04-12T21:14:00

2006-04-13T02:14:48Z

livejournal is not important anymore.
i think i will only update when i feel it is important.

things are great just beautiful.

bleachedveins @ 2006-04-06T21:31:00

2006-04-07T02:32:29Z

great great great great great great.

how could thngs get any better.

they can't.

bleachedveins @ 2006-03-21T20:33:00

2006-03-22T02:35:14Z

what have you done to me?
i don't know where it's going. where i am going?
someone stop this ride.

bleachedveins @ 2006-03-17T14:48:00

2006-03-17T20:50:40Z

i hate not being able to do anything on my birthday.
i am by myself and i hate being by myself.

wow isn't today just the perfect day.

it doesn't matter i was just born on this day...no big deal.

bleachedveins @ 2006-03-09T20:16:00

2006-03-10T02:35:40Z

now i am not exactly sure what to say because i feel like whatever i say i will be talking in a great big circle.
i feel like i am feeling the same things i have already experienced (good and bad). i feel like when i am speaking i am saying things i have already said.
i just keep walking and walking and talking and talking and doing and doing the same exact things.
i ~~want~~ need new things. i don't necessarily mean i want exciting things to happen or even extravagant things i just need new enlightened things to happen.
it seems like i now strive to learn and absorb things. i now have a new outlook on things. (even though i have times where i hate everything.)
i just love to have a connection with somebody. like a real true connection. not one where you have to be shady to see if they are someone you can trust. one where you know right away like you can tell them anything. like as soon as you meet them you feel like this is why i love people. i think all of this happened when i was sitting in the hallway by myself and thought i want to be around someone right now i want to talk to someone and learn new ideas and learn new words new new new anything.

bleachedveins @ 2006-03-05T13:12:00

2006-03-05T19:14:04Z

i think i don't want to be happy.
i am not sure why but i know it's true.
i just can't bear to see myself happy.

i hate it.

bleachedveins @ 2006-03-04T11:15:00

2006-03-04T17:20:19Z

even though i am not sure exactly of a couple of things i am fine with that, ususally i would freak out but for a weird reason i am okay with that.
i had alot of fun last night.
i went with kaylee, julie, and tony. we went to first friday for like 20 minutes and i bought this really cool piece of art. then we left and drove around. we got lost and didn't know where to go so we kept driving and we finally got back on the right rode.
i love them. they make me not have to think so hard about things. it is stress relieving.

bleachedveins @ 2006-02-27T21:44:00

2006-02-28T03:48:21Z

i have a complete new outlook on everything. i don't know why. i hung out on the top of a water tower for 2 hours and that changed my mind about everything.
maybe realizing things are so small. i don't know what it is. i feel enlightened. i feel new. i feel different. hanging out with someone who i learn from and absorb things from, changed my world.

bleachedveins @ 2006-02-24T19:20:00

2006-02-25T01:21:59Z

i just discovered the best person in my whole life.
and i knew it all along.

why can't i open my eyes?
why can't i think straight?

bleachedveins @ 2006-02-22T19:19:00

2006-02-23T01:23:47Z

I want to hold the hand inside you
I want to take a breath that’s true
I look to you and I see nothing
I look to you to see the truth
You live your life
You go in shadows
You’ll come apart and you’ll go black
Some kind of night into your darkness
Colors your eyes with what’s not there.

Fade into you
Strange you never knew
Fade into you
I think it’s strange you never knew

A stranger’s light comes on slowly
A stranger’s heart without a home
You put your hands into your head
And then smiles cover your heart

Fade into you
Strange you never knew
Fade into you
I think it’s strange you never knew

Fade into you
Strange you never knew
Fade into you
I think it’s strange you never knew
I think it’s strange you never knew

bleachedveins @ 2006-02-21T19:17:00

2006-02-22T01:18:39Z

painted ^nails.
painted_{faces.

nobody is who they pretend to be.}

bleachedveins @ 2006-02-20T15:01:00

2006-02-20T21:10:50Z

so today is so great.i got a new hair cut...that i cut myself and it makes me feel like a completely different person.
i feel revived. i am making alot of changes in my life which i think will turn out for the better.
but i think in maybe about a week thing will be absolutley perfect.

random.
so i had this really weird dream and it means: that i need to take charge and confront something that has been bothering me.

bleachedveins @ 2006-02-19T17:47:00

2006-02-19T23:49:32Z

i have so many secrets that i just want to shout out at the top of my lungs.

i bet__________.

bleachedveins @ 2006-02-18T12:27:00

2006-02-18T18:29:48Z

i think he thinks that i am avoiding him. but i'm not. i just want to take back my words that i said.
sometimes i really wish we had a rewind button...i would probably use it all the time.
hopefully i will see what happens tonight. maybe things _mightbe different.

bleachedveins @ 2006-02-17T21:52:00

2006-02-18T03:53:53Z

how do i tell you me true feelings?
now that you have someone knew i think you forgot all about me.